I've been trying to write for a long time now, and I suddenly feel as if the words, that I had thought were hidden from my thoughts, are returning back to me and I shall be thrown back into writing. I haven't written anything in almost a year, I hope, even though all I can write about is my pain, and I thought it had healed, that I can write once more. I feel an emptiness when I can't write, a longing to explore more and more of the deep secrets I seem to find in my dreams at night. So we'll see what happens. I'm glad I'm not a writer for a living or I'd be in trouble for sure now, with nothing at all on paper. I'll take it one step at a time. See you on the other side.

Are we all dead by association???It's strange how you can suddenly awaken, take a shower, then sit down at your pc, thinking "blah, another day like the ones before. All blurring endlessly into lost memories" Today started like that, but in the few hours since I awoke, it's changed, drastically. A friend shared some art with me, and it truly touched me. It was like he could get inside my head, and he could get those things swarming around and capture them on paper. I guess there are more of us that are alike that we want to admit. Today may turn out to be like all the others, in the end, but for now, I'm not giving in to it. His work also did something else, I never thought it could do. It inspired me to want to write again. I've never been able to write about certain topics, or have something out in front of me and asked to write something about it... it seemed too forced and the words just wouldn't flow.. but now.. it's like a dam has been broken and the words are flowing so rapidly I can't slow them to capture them on paper, and when I start trying to type the words become one huge, long word.. Perhaps I'll get a mini recorder.. and speak them.. wonder if that works... Guess there's one way to find out. So today, while slightly the same is still slightly different, and this may just what I need to begin my own personal healing process again.- DeadByAssociation